“In reality, I was insecure, immature and in a world where I thought I needed to impress strangers to be accepted. If there was a pop culture pile-on, I took to Twitter to try to gain attention and show off what I at the time believed was a crude, clever, harmless quip. I thought it made me cool and relatable if I poked fun at celebrities,” she wrote. “Now, confronted with some of the things that I said, I cringe to my core. I’ll honestly get sharp, stabbing pains in my body, randomly remembering my asshole past, and I deserve it.”
Later in the post, she discussed her goal to instill “kindness” in her children with singer John Legend. “John tells me almost every day how much our daughter Luna reminds him of me. Every day, I try to make sure she’s all the best parts of me, all the things I aspire to be all the time, but fail at sometimes. And we preach kindness to her and Miles every chance we get,” she continued.
“Will they eventually realize there is some hypocrisy there? I certainly do. But I hope they recognize my evolution. My goal is to be so good that my kids will think this was all a fairy tale. Not the fake good. The good that has the best intentions, the good who wakes up wanting to make her friends, family, her team and fans as happy as possible. The good who will still fuck up in front of the world but rarely, and never not growing only more good from it.”
You can read the full post here.
Other alleged victims of her bullying have issued their own responses.
Farrah Abraham, former star of Teen Mom and adult film actor, wrote her own Medium post on Tuesday, June 15, responding to Teigen’s essay. (You can read it in full here.) In the lengthy post, she reiterates much of what Teigen said through the lens of her own experience; Teigen used Twitter to “fit in,” look cool and gain fame, and if that meant taking shots at Abraham, so be it. She accuses Teigen of high school-level immaturity and notes, “Many owe me apologies like Chrissy Teigen types, I hope the world will catch up one day.”
“Chrissy’s prey of vulnerable young famous women who are true survivors and warrior women today have shared if they had or not heard an apology about her actions from long ago whenever she realized it was wrong then or now,” she writes, before noting that she has not gotten an apology directly from Teigen, and believes that not only she but also others deserves one, including her daughter, who suffered because of Teigen’s words.
Abraham also calls out TV producers, online platforms, and talk shows for perpetuating negative stereotypes about and mocking of women.
Seemingly also in response to Teigen’s Medium essay, fashion designer Michael Costello, a Project Runway alum, posted on Instagram, explaining (his side, at least) how a misunderstanding with Teigen led to missed career opportunities and eventually drove him to thoughts of suicide. Per Costello, an angry former employee created a fake post to make it look like Costello had used a racial slur online (this was in the midst of Costello being accused of stealing a Black designer’s work, a controversy that seems to be explained well in this Twitter thread, though we can’t verify its authenticity), which led to Teigen calling him out as a racist. When he tried to explain his side to Teigen, she doubled down, and she and stylist Monica Rose deliberately sabotaged his career in retribution.
In the post, Costello writes that he is sharing this story not to bring further damage to Teigen’s reputation or to extract an apology, but to free himself of the detrimental mental health burden of carrying this secret.
This post will be updated as more information becomes available.